Thoughts While Cleaning Rubbish Bins

We have Base work duty here at YWAM SIngapore every Wednesday afternoon. All the staff and students come together and are assigned different cleaning jobs for 1.5 hours around the Base. Yesterday, I was given not-so-lovely task of emptying the five large rubbish bins around the Base, scrubbing them with bleach and detergent inside and outside, rinsing, drying and relining them... Not my idea of a pleasant afternoon.
I had been feeling dizzy in the afternoon and was a little miffed that of all days, I should have to clean bins, this was it. However, I set about the task at hand.
As I was doing so, somehow a verse came to my mind. In DTS (Discipleship Training School) when I was a student, and we were going on outreach, my outreach leader asked all of us to ask God for a verse for ourselves during the outreach. Mine was:

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men. Colossians 3:23

I decided to give it my best. I scrubbed those bins as well as I could and started to sing


I'll stand in awe of You, Jesus
Yes, I'll stand in awe of You
And I'll let my words be few
Jesus, I am so in love with You


Surprisingly, my heart immediately felt lighter and the task not so bad after all.

God is Indeed Faithful

After my last post and the revelations therein, I was blessed within in a 2 day period by three people giving me different amounts of money.

Firstly, it is not really about the money. It is about GOD. I am so grateful to learn:

1. God is still God even if he doesn't provide

2. God still does provide, even if it appears to be late

I want to always remember what I learnt through this past week and to never take for granted the blessings and the goodness of God in my life...

I love him

Sometimes Lack is a Blessing

It is easy to trust God for money when I still have some.
Today, I came to the point where I didn’t even have the money to top up the minimum for my public transport card to go and get Mum and Dave from the airport. I had to ask someone for $10.
It was incredibly humbling. At least for me.
My mind has been running wild, God, why? He has always provided for me. I have had to sacrifice some wants along the way, but since I began this life is completely being dependent on him in 2007, I have always had enough for the basics.
This week has been a struggle even to buy meals.
I was hanging out some washing just now and the ‘why’ questions were running over and over in my head. I began to wonder, am I sinning somewhere in my life that I am not aware of which is causing finances to be blocked? Have I been unfaithful along the way? Have I been a bad steward?
Eventually I ran out of possible reasons.
I felt like I was faced with a choice. Will I still believe God is good even in this?
I said out loud, God, I believe you are a good God. You have always provided for me and I have never starved. However, even if you do not give me any money, I will still choose to believe that you are good and loving.
I just started to cry.
And then I realized the truth. I am SO BLESSED to be brought to this place. If God always gave me everything on time and in abundance, I would never be at this place where I am now; choosing to worship in lack. 
In this place, God is not my God because he gives me things. He is my God because he is worthy, because of who he is.
Sometimes lack is a blessing. It is a tough blessing. But a blessing all the same.

Wisdom of God to do Justice

I heard a story two days ago that has not left me.
A YWAMer just returned from a mission trip. She met a young girl, only 11-years-old. This girl had been raped by her own brother and seven of his friends, one after the other. When they had finished with her, they cut her from her chest down to her stomach, believing that she would die.
But she didn't...
My instant response when I heard this, was to go... but go and do what?
Last night as I was reading my Bible, I came to a few words that 'jumped' out at me.


"And all Israel heard of the judgment that the king (Solomon) had rendered, and they stood in awe of the king, because they perceived that the wisdom of God was in him to do justice."
1 Kings 3:28


... the wisdom of God was in him to do justice...


Justice needs to be executed with God's wisdom. 
My church is about to embark on reading the Proverbs in a month, something very easy to do seeing as there are only 31 chapters. I used to read Proverbs every month and the wisdom inside this book is incredible!
As I think about these issues: wisdom, justice, abuse... I realize that I need to have WHOLENESS in my life. Jesus was the holiness and wholeness of God displayed and modeled. He pulled no punches when it came to injustice and sin and he was always merciful and loving, slow to anger and abounding in love.
I am heading towards a future of fighting injustice. I know it. But as I wait, as I go through my training period in God, I want to grow in his wisdom, his understanding, his mercy and his justice.